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[personal profile] everysecondtuesday
An admission, finally, because no matter how much I hope I will get over this, it's time to face up to the fact it won't happen any time soon. I'm having difficulty (in which, to be honest, "difficulty" itself is almost a euphemism) replying to comments, talking to most people on aim or gchat, using the phone, or chatting with more than one of the few people with whom I can talk at once. (We're not even going to go into leaving the house.) E-mail, at least, is mostly working, if I tell myself I only have to reply with a few lines, and anything past that is just icing.

I'm not saying this so I can get "Oh, poor Tuesday :(" comments or internet hugs, not that I don't appreciate knowing that all of y'all tend towards a most awesome sympathy or empathy when it comes to this sort of issue, rather than automatically assuming some bid for attention. Some of you already know that I'm currently working on finding a medication that works for me, and I'm hoping I'll get there at some point, but right now, I'll settle for making it a little easier on myself and admitting that no, I won't be replying to all of the comments. I may not even be replying to most or some of the comments. Mostly, I want each of you to know: it's really, really not you; it is most definitely me and my brain chemistry.

With any luck, with this out of the way, and with less (even self-created) pressure on, I'm hoping I'll be able to post again, or write fic with the hope of posting again, or at least contemplate either without having to go lie down and tell myself to breathe.

Currently, I'm leaving comments on on this entry, but I may lock them for any (even irrational) reason. This entry is currently unlocked, but that may change. Hell, don't be surprised if I panic at how awkward this entry feels and it is suddenly magically gone from one minute to the next.


Some less awkward-feeling things:

• My sinus infection is slowly getting better, emphasis on slowly, but my wrist is pretty much recovered at this point.
Porn Battle is open and has lots of interesting prompts. This time around it's open for eleven days. Maybe I will finish something for it this time around.
Festivids has gone live. I haven't had a chance to watch much yet, but the two vids I have seen were amazing. And to think, there are well over a hundred more left to watch!
• I've recently taken up Minecraft. It's still in beta, so not only is it discounted, but every time Notch updates with new trees, mobs, and recipes, it's like Christmas. It's like if Legos and Dwarf Fortress got together and had an adorable baby that made friends with the undead. Just so you know, you should consider this Penny Arcade comic and the one proceeding it both a dire promise and a warm warning. Also: this update has cake & squid!
• Speaking of the above, if you play Minecraft and want me to help build or mine you things, let me know what server you are on? I tend to wander the servers when I am not playing on [personal profile] the_wanlorn's or a server full of adorable teenagers. (Actually, I do not know for a fact they are teenagers, but man, do I ever suspect.)
• Expect to see this game in my next The A-Team fic.
• I received lovely cards from [personal profile] love and [personal profile] talitha78 over the holiday season. Sorry for not thanking you both sooner. Each seriously made my day. ♥
• Anyone have any suggestions for a reliable place to back up my fic list if Yahoo can't find anyone to sell Delicious?
• Even though I've been reading this whole time, I've missed y'all. ♥

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Date: 2011-01-25 09:35 pm (UTC)
arallara: Chris Kirkpatrick does the "Uncle Sam" point with text banners above and below reading "You Control the Narrative." (Default)
From: [personal profile] arallara
For what it's worth, I completely understand where you're coming from. Take care of yourself as best you can, and my experience has been that fandom is remarkably understanding about things like unanswered comments, etc.. Thinking good thoughts for you, my dear.

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Date: 2011-01-26 05:21 am (UTC)
lizfu: (Sammy acknowledges your pain)
From: [personal profile] lizfu
I'm saying this as your friend, but I worry for you. You're an amazing person - have been since we met - and I want you to get better or find ways to cope that work for you. You know I'll always be there for you if you want to talk or if you want me to come over and spend some time with you. We don't even have to go out. I can bring over the million and one amazing things I have to throw at you (like Community).

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Date: 2011-01-26 05:22 am (UTC)
lizfu: (ILU)
From: [personal profile] lizfu
P.S.: I love you.

like a friend, of course.

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Date: 2011-02-06 05:43 am (UTC)
afniel: (Default)
From: [personal profile] afniel
Super late reply...see how often I check DW >_>()

I totally understand where you're at with it. Believe it or not I've been through bouts of it myself. You'll find a way through and everyone will be there when you're ready. ♥

Internet hugs even if you weren't fishing for them! 'Cause you can always have internet hugs from me even for no reason. :D

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